| Ex mooD ... Just if it could be as beautiful as the victorian era ... so different ... yet ... so familiar |
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| well done .... its been soooo long since last post...
well i thought it was longer than it reli is....
spent some ... half n hr to reli find how to get a new entry done ><
jesus
just curious to spend a while to put in an entry before i die ...
(despite the rushes to finish my essay)
it (xanga) seems such a childish place to me now
hving too many jacky cheung tonite
reminding me my childhood, teenage-hood, n many
was remembering a blog, a frd, a piece of memory, a string of emotion, a line of .....
how strange the feeling is
to found something would reli disappear
like a dream
yet ... u so wana find a piece of evidence which it happened
a totally erased blog... somehow i think its in my diary bak home
well ... was the times of ''sinling's'' age
been believing i'd be able to find a real self back there
.... afterall
sinling's the real name....
a trip bak in hk...
nothing more than 5 days
no intension to change but
thr i go .... desperately wanting to care n love all around me
the closest .... esp granny
seeing her slim... seeing her old
then mama
....seeing her .... change
seeing ppl harming her
seeing ... myself wanting to protect
suddenly find a totally different bit of myself
quite like it this way
may be afterall
i do look at real quality of relationship with family, frds and .... all kinds
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| CanT eVeN recaLl wheN did I do mY laSt PosT......
GetTinG soO bC soO faR baK heRe.... biT oF sUrpriseS buT alSo loAds of DisaPpoIntmenTs
bb my Teenssss ....... ><
20. .... wat should it reli be like ?
dun hv a clue....
thgs goes so grey n sad whn u dont even hv fantasy.... not a single dream
findin hard even just 2 make a bday wish
2nd yr of uni ..... hardness all around ... tough edges are cuttin me ..><
but thk thts why i'm in this dramatic adult world ><
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